For last month or so, I’ve suddenly found myself obsessing about this DSLR. I first saw it at the mall. They were selling Nikon D40 for PhP 35,500.00 or so. Since then I’ve had that camera stuck in my head. I’ve been thinking of it day and night. I’ve downloaded the brochure and read everything about it. All signs point to “Buy the damn thing!” But to this day, I still haven’t got the courage.
Maybe it’s because of the thought that I still have a good working digital camera. It’s a 5MP Sony DSC-P100. I mean, it is my very first cam. Plus, its casing is colored red, one of my favorite colors. I suppose I feel like I’m betraying it by buying another cam.
And then there’s the fact that great photography rests not on the camera but on who’s taking the shots. Although I have yet to produce spectacular shots, I could say that my photos aren’t that bad. I’ve been raking in a modest amount of comments in my flickr site. It could only mean that by buying another camera, it won’t affect my performance unless I change. I mean, the change should come from me instead of the camera.
Of course, the fact that my husband would still have to approve it shouldn’t be discounted. After all, it’s not just my money I’m spending. Legally speaking, everything I earn is divided between the two of us. And even though our current savings divided by two could still afford that precious DSLR, it would be in good taste to consider my husband’s opinion first. And on this matter, he has clearly manifested that we have other things to prioritize. I guess, in layman’s language, that means that the damn cam is much too pricey. I could disregard him and buy it anyway. I mean, half of our money is mine. But who wants to live with a disgruntled man who wouldn’t talk to you for a couple of months? It wouldn’t have mattered if we were living separately. But that, unfortunately, is not the case. (hehe)
Despite, however, the obvious reasons why I should not want the Nikon D40, I am still in the fervent throes of desire. I suppose it doesn’t help that I keep looking at it in the net and thinking of all the nice shots I could take. Every once in a while, I am seized by the urge to drive to the mall and buy that lone stock of DSLR just to pacify my soul and just run away. That would be convenient, except I think my husband would have the authorities running after me. Plus the fact that the camera would probably suck at cuddling during the night. So I guess that’s another reason why I shouldn’t be run by impulse. God put our heads on top of our bodies for a reason: so that it could run our bodies. That is why I’m struggling to stay logical. “You don’t need another camera.” I keep telling myself that. In time, I hope I’ll start believing it.
Unless, the Nikon D40 suddenly comes in a red body. I’d probably go mad by then.
He said/She said